| Tuesday, February 7th, 2006 |
| 7:27 pm |
newness can suck
So here I am in a new city again. Everytime I do this it gets harder. Usually when I have moved in the past it was for school, read automatic social life. Now I live in Sacramento no job, one friend who is moving soon and no life. I am starting to freak out. What the hell was I thinking. I am back to having to consider choping off my hair again jsut so the queers will talk to me. I hate that sterotype, mainly that it works against me. perhaps I should make some t-shirts that read "I'm lonely, talk to me" of course than only the wrong people would. When did I lose the ability to be outgoing? I used to be so good at it. I think I am getting old, the idea of having to find and develop a whole new set of friends just sounds exausting not exciting. Current Mood:  lonely |
| Friday, April 29th, 2005 |
| 12:51 pm |
I'm not dead yet
Well here we are another random post from Emily. Life is interesting here in SF. I was running a motorcycle shop for a while but I fired myself 'cause they couldn't afford me. Now I am working with BayAreaRealty.org, We shall see. Have been having way too much fun with the hot girls this place has to offer with only a few bad spells...Hey at least now I know how to tell when your GF is doing lots of coke. I will most likely be coming up to WA sometime soon again (Aidan I miss you) Oh yeah and I got my hood peirced. GO ME. Current Mood:  optimistic |
| Monday, January 3rd, 2005 |
| 2:19 pm |
I'm Silly
Ok So if you have tried to call me lately you may have noticed that I don't reply. I lost all my numbers so if you read this and want to talk to me send me your #in a reply and I will call. K love you all. Sorry 'bout being a flake. In compleatly different news. I am having some confusing things go on about a loved one who may or may not be doing bad drugs(as opposed to good ones like pot). I asked her, she said sometimes but I get the feeling it may be more like every day. I don't want to cut her out of my life but I don't know if I am being used. Advice greatly appreciated. Why do I always pick people who need saving... Current Mood:  crushed |
| Friday, December 17th, 2004 |
| 12:02 pm |
I'm Alive and the WATER calls to me.
Hello my long lost friends. I am finally on my feet again. Which means I have a job, a car, a house, a new phone number and a computer with interwebnetty stuff. Yeah me. I miss All of my Oly people. but I don't think I miss Oly.(yet) Possible because my life has taken an interesting and educational turn. For those of you that haven't heard Jer and I are no longer together nd I am living the queer life in San Francisco. My kick ass friend Heather moved with me. We have great house, cool roomates. Come visit me. Current Mood:  energetic |
| Monday, April 26th, 2004 |
| 5:58 am |
the interesting things that Em can make happen
So sometimes I even suprise myself. I wonder if a person can make a living arranging and facilitaing orgy like settings. I think that I would be an excellent canidate for such a thing. They just seem to happen around me and I take full responsibility because I do it on purpose. My new identity "The Human Headboard." In the immortal words of Mel Brooks... "It's good to be the King." Current Mood:  enthralled |
| Wednesday, April 21st, 2004 |
| 6:50 pm |
Introducing....the dunce with a degree
So here I am freaking out, trying to figure out what to do for my final quarter at Evergreen and it turns out THIS IS MY FINAL QUARTER turns out I can't add and I have enough to graduate. Doesn't that just beat the band? Current Mood:  happy |
| Wednesday, April 14th, 2004 |
| 9:33 pm |
Poly-blue
Sometimes I think that people make life difficult for themselves on purpose. I know I do occasionally. For example I have two problems right now. 1. I haven't talked to a particular person in a few days 'cause I think he wants me to leave him alone. I could just call him and find out but I feel crappy/sick and so I haven't 2. And this one is so much more annoying because it is always on going. Why do I belong to two deliniations that make it soo hard for me to find someone to date? So I am a polysexual(not bi 'cause there are more than 2 genders) and I am polyamorous. So you would think this would make it easy to find people...finding them is easy but since I have my stupid ethics. I make sure that people know where I stand. I will not get ass under false pretenses. However, apparently people are not as accepting of open, caring, hot, fullfilling, sex that lcannot be classified as a "Relationship" or "One-night-stand." I like people and I am honest. So why does the world make me feel like a freak? Current Mood:  confused |
| Monday, April 5th, 2004 |
| 3:33 pm |
Books we fall in love with.
Random post but sprkid's post reminded me. My favorite two "queer" books right now. "Tipping the Velvet" which is a great story about lesbians in early 1900's England. Lot's of Oyster insinuations. Everybody should read this, it is a great story that just happens to have some of the best sex scenes in it. (Strangely enough my mother gave it to me, one of her trying to understand queerness things.) the other is pure sex "The Leather Daddy and the Femme" I LOVE THIS BOOK. anyone who is turned on by or just interested in genderfucky sex should try this one. For you Olympia folks I have both if you want to borrow (if I can part with The Leather Daddy for that long) Current Mood:  creative |
| Sunday, April 4th, 2004 |
| 1:51 pm |
Lessons Learned
SO people amaze me every day. Last night I watched people become friends where there was heart-ache and saw friendships spawn over loud, bad, techno. I also got in a fight with someone I love. It wasn't his fault, it wasn't my fault, it just was. We'll get over it because we understand each other. And because I refuse to stop loving him even if he thinks it is condecending sometimes. I had a dream last night that the fight was over and we were already back to normal. Maybe we are maybe it was just one of those things. I'm sorry we fight. It is in our nature. I would'nt like you much if you and I always agreed,(how boring would that be) Current Mood:  groggy |
| Thursday, March 11th, 2004 |
| 11:41 am |
My femme rant
I am Femme like... I learned to F#$k with finger nails rather than lose my pretty finger nails Like I wear a thong even when I do drag Like I want to be a drag queen because they get to wear all the good stuff I am Femme like people tell me I'm not gay(Screw them)'cause I don't look like a dyke Like I'm not me without long hair like I keep 6 shades of lipstick in my car just in case Like my pride necklace makes me a "great Ally" Like I learned how to Weld in high school and fell in love Like I will kick your ass if you hurt the ones I love and I will do it without breaking a sweat I am Femme like I can fix my own car thank you very much and let's face it we know we look hot with that smudge of grease on our face... I will wear a man's shirt and make it look like Dior I will bind my chest to understand my FTM brothers I will not cut my hair I will not "tone down" the way I dress I will not carry a purse I will not let anyone tell me I'm not gay enough Even if I never get asked to dance because I look like every cheerleader you wanted and high school and couldn't talk to I will not stop being me I am Femme I am a Tomboy I am Queer I am not what you say I am, the only label I fit is the one I give myself. Thank you very much I am done now. Current Mood:  devious |
| Friday, March 5th, 2004 |
| 1:18 pm |
Yea Me
I got the internship!!!! I will be doing public relations work for Stonewall Youth for Spring Quarter. I am very excited. I get to do the stuff I want and feel like I am making a difference. How Cool is that. Not to mention I went to my interview in full drag, but that is another stroy. Current Mood:  excited |
| Friday, February 20th, 2004 |
| 5:29 pm |
Hi-Ho Hi-Ho it's off to Trax we go
I love Trax. I know it is a little strange to be this attached to a bar but for some reason I am. I feel more myself when I am there then anywhere else...except maybe my bed (I <3flannel sheets) So of course I am happy to be going this weekend with my favorite twin. I will miss co many things about WA I never realized how much I would miss having trax and Aidan on Friday nights. Thinking about leaving deppresses me, so I won't. I sent in my application to The Human Rights campagian. Here's hoping I want to work there so much. SF is the place to make this stand and I want to do everything I can to help. Kisses and love to everyone. |
| Sunday, February 15th, 2004 |
| 5:56 pm |
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| Sunday, February 8th, 2004 |
| 11:09 pm |
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| 2:10 pm |
So Yah...I think I finally get to be gay
I had The BEST time last night. Hung out with wonderfully entertaining people. Got kissed by a Drag Queen and had to go to the Bathroom to wash off all that lipstick. AND... Met a Really hot person who now has my number so let's not jinx that. (So hot) And I bought a razor so I can shave my legs 'cause I left mine in CA last time I went down there. I am one hairy bitch ('cause you all wanted to know that) Current Mood:  flirty |
| Friday, January 30th, 2004 |
| 12:04 am |
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| Monday, January 12th, 2004 |
| 3:08 am |
I talk a lot
I have come to the realization that I talk a lot. Not too much. I think. I just have a lot to say. However, this presents a problem when I am around those who do not talk much. They rarely get a word in edgewise. So if you have something to say and I won't shut up you have rights to tap me on the shoulder and I will shut up until you finish. Okay night night Current Mood: awake |
| Friday, January 9th, 2004 |
| 10:22 am |
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